Tuesday, January 22, 2008
oh, my heart
i was running late to work today because my daughter is sick again and staying home from school. as i left, she gave me a hug with tears in her pitiful eyes. i called home to check on her from the road to hear she was still crying for me.
the dilemma. i made a commitment to my school when i took this job and they rely on me. i don't want to let them down.
but months ago, while shopping at costco, i told my daughter that i would be working this year. always ten steps ahead of the game, she said, "mom, what if i get sick?" i said, "i only work two days a week." she said, "well, what if i get sick on one of those days?" i stopped pushing my cart. i knelt down and looked her square in the eye and i said, "you will always come first."
so, today, i turned my car around. i didn't want to do it. but she needed me and i promised her. i talked to my principal and i apologized. ugh. you can't win.
i know there are working mothers everywhere with hearts being tugged in all different directions. i just want to say, "hey, i felt your pain today."